I can’t believe it’s been a year without you.
I can’t believe it’s been a year. Sometimes I still think I hear you. I feel like I was holding you just yesterday. People said it would get better, that time heals all wounds. But I don’t think a lifetime is long enough to get over you.
I still feel gutted and hollow.
I wanted to make a video worthy of you today, but I just couldn’t get myself to do it.
Anytime I am still long enough to think about you without distraction I feel like my heart is torn out all over again.
I’ve been pushing even harder since you left, Boo. And I am so very, very tired.
The channel is not the same without you. My life will never be the same without you. You were a bringer of joy. A force of sheer presence. You never let all of the challenges imposed upon you by humans hold you back.
Do you are forever in my heart. And I know you touch the hearts of so many around the world. Your example has saved so many animals, who deserve joy happiness and freedom as much as you did.
I will keep fighting for them and carry you with me. And I will keep sharing your story to continue your legacy.
See the this video to learn more about this incredible being whom I was so fortunate to have in my life.
— Emily Moran Barwick
Katharine Carroll says
Truly appreciate your hard work. It’s not easy to move forward after the loss of a loved one. You can tell you love deeply and it’s been a tough year. My little dog passed on this past week. My other dog never leaves my side now. They feel as we do that is certain. You are in my prayers.
Your kid videos caught my attention & the rest is history. My perspective has completely changed. After taking pathophysiology classes recently & watching your videos, it only makes sense to make changes. My dog has been eating vegan as well. He’s always liked eating veggies in the kitchen. Keep up the great work. Thank you so much!! Big hugs!
Emily Barwick says
Katharine, thank you so much for sharing this and I’m so sorry for the delay. I missed a lot of comments around this time. I am SO very sorry to hear about your own loss.
That is SO amazing to hear about your change and also your pooch as well! I’m honored beyond measure. And thank you for taking the time to share this. I again apologize that I’m just now finding it… Much much love!!
robert macdonald says
Yeah, it’s tough when our four legged friends pass on. Had the same experience in May.
I’m so sorry for your loss. My husky, wolf died 14 years ago and I still cry. It’s the love they feel and no doubt, your fur face is feeling your love and sending it right back. I love you and think you’re a great friend to critters. What a blessing to be a critter friend of yours?
Emily Barwick says
I am so sorry to hear this Jenny. They do have such an impact in our lives. Thank you for sharing this with me, and I am SO very sorry that I am only now finding it in the backlog of the website. My deepest apologies. Much much love to you!
robert macdonald says
Saw this and thought of you –
Teri Edgar says
The love remains; death does not eliminate it. I cried as soon as this story about your precious friend started. At the same time it warmed me because our love is bigger than death. I have never “gotten over” the death of my little soulmate, my bff. I love an have loved my rescue dogs but they never took the place of Max. There was something about watching your tribute to your little loving partner that was like the warmth of a candle lit in the dark. I know that at the end of our journey awaits a joyous reunion of souls. I love you, Emily. You are a mighty candlelight.
Emily Moran Barwick says
Thank you so much for sharing this, Teri. I am so very glad to hear that my tribute to Ooby connected with your own experience of loss. I am the first to tell people that there is no wrong way to grieve—that the devastation of losing a companion is real and worthy of whatever way it manifests. I have not “gotten over” her death, nor do I think I ever will. It’s never been a goal of mine, despite many saying I should. It’s hard sometimes to not feel that we may be over-reacting—I wanted to share the depth of my loss and the profound impact she had so that others may know they’re not alone, that their feelings are valid, and that these beings deserve our mourning and our awe. Much love to you, Teri!
Kelly W says
I found “a year without you” while creating a pet loss board on Pinterest. My heart is in my throat and the tears freely flow both for your Ooby and my Paddy who was 19. Although your post is over a year old, I wanted to say how sorry I was and also tell you that your blog/you-tube (along with others) have helped me to commit to a vegan diet. Though vegetarian for over 25 years and lacto-vegetarian for 14 I am dedicating my change to a vegan diet to my cat Paddy who died one month ago. Thank you for all that you do, it is appreciated by many. Please do not feel you need to respond to this email. Take a breath and blow a kiss to Ooby and a hug to yourself.